Sigh. This is so lovely. I'm not sure why I haven't told you this before. I came back for a re-read because I needed to make sure I was not plagiarising you in my cuddy_fest story (only really really slightly *facepalm*) which I really need to finish now, and EEE, I love this so much. The hopelessness of the end is so perfectly Angel. I love Spike and Angel and Illyria and Cuddy with them. Awesome.